It doesn't matter what you call it, a day in the life looks much like this
(assuming it's a good day)
Okay, I don't get Physical Therapy--I'm not even close to ready, so keep this in mind.....
I used to rise at 5am to go to work. Now, my alarm sounds at 5 so the pills that must be taken on an empty stomach can be so I can attempt to choke down something with the pills that must be taken with food--like the Vitamin D-2. Oh, and the Vitamin D-2. I set the record for the lowest level ever drawn in the clinic (amongst my other malnutritional problems).
My D-2 was immesureable...my D-3 was barely 7. Total was 7...I shall soon know what my blood level was 7!
I have met one person who had a level of 6; she has an eating disorder: anorexia.
Gastroparesis here, folks. That's the constant nausea and vomiting where you're fortunate if part 2 isn't NUMBER 2.....
Meaning, part 2 being something like this:
Not this:
#2
Well, shit, I'm sorry, but--for one, at least the dog puked in the toilet....second, at least the individual responsible for picture #2 of Number two, had the good sense to take the damned picture...how many times have you been asked the details of your last bowel movement?
Well, I get asked what my puke looks like..."Breakfast" is usually the response. Or whatever meal I was stupid enough to eat...so there's really no shit (excuse my language on my blog,) in my gut to produce like this person has...there's nastier photos, and be grateful I am well enough to use a little humour tonight...
And that happens less often. When you carry what you need around in a bag formerly used for a bowling ball, and some of it is pills, ok...most of it; then the siesta mask for the sudden migraines, countless earplugs, a couple jugs of your protein shake--some fennel so you can have a good shit and count them by the week not the month.
If your lucky you sleep.
If your not you sweat, scream, cry, vomit, take your body weight in pills:
This is what my hips look like--the right one is the one they drilled that I got RSD from. The surgeon said ITBS (IT Band Syndrome)...but we've preeeettttttyyyy much ruled that out. At least I am not this poor bastard:
Of all the things that suck about RSD/CRPS, is that even a needlestick by someone who is a bloody moron, you are basically fucked (sorry--my blog, my language, no one is forcing you to read), but talk about getting enough fluids, I should take a photograph of my meds, which mostly come in liquid....
This isn't my slush, but pretty fucking close: don't forget about the pile that I have to chew and crush...some perfectly helpful meds, I have had to stop taking because I couldn't tolerate the taste. And because I have to make a slurry of it.......I chew/crush pills more
As my body gives out on me, as the betrayal continues...my right leg constantly feels something like this:
But none of these, or all of these combined accomplishes what I would like to find for RSD: |
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One plus TWO
equals
What feels like a million....
And it's fucking all you want!!!!!!
Putting out fire with pills-medications, spinal blocks, etc.....it's crap.
This mug reads:
"My own experience with a chronic painful medical condition exceeds your percieved medical knowledge"
No more "RSD099" please!!!
The first two hours of my day have been hard enough!!!
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